Friday, April 22, 2011

"Go Read About Me..."

Lately I have been dealing with a lot of inner turmoil. Honestly, this last year has been pretty yucky. I could give you a list, but I don't want to conjure it all back up & I don't want to admit to some of it either. I have not understood why I have had to walk & sometimes crawl through it all. I have been extremely discouraged. My heart aches for many things to be different than what is reality. This week leading up to Good Friday & Easter, it feels like my mind, heart & soul have been pulled in different directions...Ya know....That inner turmoil. I pray. I read. I worship. And here I am going to be perfectly honest...I have just been having a hard time. A very hard time. I do cling to hope, but sometimes it's difficult to see the forest for the trees, especially when you barely begin to get your bearings & are knocked flat down once again. At times it feels like I have been punched in the gut, but can't get in enough deep breaths before I am punched once again. I was just sitting here a few minutes ago watching a show that I DVR'd & I felt the Lord say "Go read about me....Go read what I did for you..." So I did. I read Matthew 27 & 28. I sobbed as I read each word out loud. As a Christian, it never hurts to be reminded yet again, of His sacrifice. Of course, the Bible I know does not even begin to describe the pure torment of what He went through. What a gift, we have all been given. None of us deserve Him. We don't deserve His goodness, but yet He offers it so freely. I could never begin to put into words how grateful I am to call Him Savior. I know even with all of the junk that life has thrown at me, I could never wake up each morning (or afternoon) without Him in my heart. Without His peace. Without Him to talk to. Without His pure love. And without HIM being in control.

So on this Resurrection weekend, take the time to read of what Jesus did for you. And reflect.

If you don't have a Bible handy,
 you can read Matthew 27Matthew 28 right here.


  1. You have been on my mind a lot lately. I'm going to start praying for you when I think about you.

    Just keep hanging on. God is always faithful.

  2. So beautiful, Crystal.


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