Thursday, March 17, 2011

The Last Month

Happy St. Patrick's Day!

I guess I should give an update on what's been going on in my world over the last month. (has it really been a month?) I've gotten several emails asking where I have been. I haven't blogged, because frankly, I didn't know what to say. I have been blah as blah can be.
 Someone said to me that we sure have been on a rollercoaster ride these last few months, to which I replied, "We sure have, but I think the rollercoaster is broken with me left at the top hanging upside down."
The stress of everything has not be kind to me physically. I'm not going to go into detail, but it landed me in the ER, since we don't have insurance. Believe me, I wouldn't have gone if it not been serious. This last month I have dealt with a wide range of emotions. The one thing I can't understand & probably never will is, what was it all for? It was extra hard watching D, be so down about it all. That was where most of my anger came from...Seeing him hurt. I am leaning on the Lord & even in this testing of my faith, I know He remains in control. And in the simplest of gestures He reminds me of that. It's so easy to praise Him in the good times, isn't it? It's in those times of desperation that you sometimes have to muster the strength to give those words of praise. But oh how rewarding they are when you do!

But here's some fabulous news....

Yesterday, D began his new job at a radio station as a board operator. Which he is loving! And he's also working at a home improvement place (which he began last Saturday), as well as running sound at a church on Sundays. The job at the church is the only consistent $ we have had since October. Thank You Jesus for it!

My house is still pretty much packed up, because 1) I just haven't felt like dealing with it. 2) because if D didn't get a job fast, we would have ended up having to move in with my parents. So everything would have ended up in storage. Most all of the boxes are packed up in one of the extra rooms & I have actually enjoyed not having the clutter. And since most of the things are not "needed" items, they may remain in boxes for awhile.I did have to unearth the boxes full of stockpiled beauty aides. And my paint stuff.

I wanted to thank everyone who has been kind, gave an encouraging word, a suggestion on jobs for D & has been praying for us. We will not forget it.


  1. Maybe this is what you learned from all of this.... 1) your faith is stronger than you may have believed - you did not let this shake your faith; 2) your marriage is stronger than you knew because you survived the distance factor and the stress through this journey. Not an easy thing to do, and not easy being apart for a long time. Through it all you supported each other; 3) you are both stronger people than you may have known. You each managed along w/o each other and had to be independent whioh was something that you had not had to do. Sometimes it is just nice to know you can do things on your own. Although you had Skype to keep you together, it is different than when you know the person will be walking in the door at the end of the day and they are there to hug and curl up next to. For me, I am always having to reply on just me, so I am SO happy when Cy is there to step in when I really need support. FOr you this was the opposite test - to test you on your own, and show you you also have your own personal strength. 4) and maybe it was a way to enforce your love for each other and the appreciation for the things you do have - whether it is house, family, friends or other little things. Maybe just maybe. BUT maybe I'm all wrong! ;)

  2. As my current blog post says "If you going through hell, keep going."

    Since I'm older than you, I'll tell you this in a 'big-sister/mama' fashion. EVERY thing that has ever happened to me in my life (thus far) has always had an end result. Now that doesn't mean that I believe God lets us in (nor is he obligated to) on why He does, or allows things to happen.

    But while you're going through this, please know He is working - He is not asleep.

    Love you!

  3. I'm sorry to hear about all the trouble life has placed in your lap. I will place you and D in my prayers. It's really good news he got a job.

    I pray strength and hope for you. May God provide healing, provision and abundance for you and D.


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